"Mirror Of Ink"

I look into this mirror of ink and see a soul that has no beauty in itself, but is silvery-white in the light of

Your Grace that covers me and makes me new.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Day 22- Patience Doesn't Come Easy

I don't like being patient. I don't like having to wait for what I want or think I need now. I don't enjoy the process of waiting. And, when I'm not living led by the Spirit, I usually don't wait.

I believe this is true for most of us (at least I hope it's not just me). We are an impatient people. We want what we want when we want it, which is usually now. And because of that, we often cause ourselves pain and stress trying to make something happen that is not meant to happen at the moment, or fretting over what should be happening. Why is it so hard to just wait???

We are born into the sinful nature. The sinful nature says "Me, me, me!" When we become Christians, we realize that life is not all about us, and that we are a part of a master plan created by God. But still, our flesh cries out, "What about me? What about what I want?" And so, when it is in God's plan for us to wait, our sinful nature stomps its little feet and throws a tantrum. We know we should be patient. But it's hard!

As I think about it, older people are much more patient than the younger generation. They have had to wait for things their whole lives. And perhaps they've realized that the good things God brings into your life are worth waiting for, and the things you don't get aren't worth having anyway. The Word tells us that our Heavenly Father wants to give "good gifts" to His children. But how many of us would give our children all their birthday presents the week before their birthday? The child may not understand why they can't have it all then, but we know that there's a greater purpose and a wonderful celebration ahead if they'll just wait.

The same is true for us. In times when we don't understand why we must wait on something, our Heavenly Father has our "gifts" already wrapped and ready for us, but He knows that there is a time and purpose for everything, and if we'll wait on Him, He will celebrate those gifts with us! What a good God we have to keep our best interest at heart in all He does for us.

Derick and I are in the early processes of adopting a child. It is a long and tedious process. We've just started, and I'm already having trouble being patient. But I am praying, "Lord, help me to trust your timing." If I can realize that God's plan for my life will come together piece by piece in His own perfect time, perhaps one day I will be able to silence this little tantrum-throwing sinful nature in my head as I wait on Him. I am trusting and believing God for His perfect time and the patience to wait for it!

"Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all who wait for him!" Isaiah 30:18

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